I’d say that my two favorite things in Prague are the Charles Bridge and the Astronomical Clock. The clock dates back to 1410 and is one of the most beautiful works of art I have ever seen. Every hour hundreds of people gather around to see the clock do it’s thing and “perform” it’s magic. The irony of the clock is not lost on me. My biological clock (clearly time ran out)….charting cycles and time….the two week wait….the wait for doctors…the wait for tests….the wait for ultrasounds….trying to make time slow down as baby boy grows so fast….it’s all about time. It is ALL about time.
I returned from Prague and called my OB to schedule my betas (HCG tests taken 48 hours apart). Having moved last year, I started with a new OB and she agreed to support me through this cycle. She saw me through January, did my betas, performed tests prior to this round in Prague, and when I called to schedule, the nurse called me back and say “Dr. M doesn’t see fertility patience until 14 weeks.” Well okey dokey….the two week wait is stressful….like really stressful…but now I don’t have a doctor. I called 16 OBs (all who said they will see fertility patients at 14 weeks) and 6 fertility centers (all who said they can’t see patients who are under another fertility center’s care). Splendid. This feels stress free. A little lessons for anyone going to Prague: Assure your doctor WILL support you when you get home. Clearly Dr. M has no heart.
I finally found a doctor who would see me and luckily was willing to see me quickly. I went in on a Friday and he said he’d prefer true 48 hour betas so we decided to wait until a Monday & Wednesday test. He took my progesterone on Friday, which came back low at 9. They want it above 15. Sigh. We’ve been here before. Prague Fertility Centre assured me I was getting enough progesterone and I finally understood that typically progesterone is low for egg donor patients because they suppress my ovaries during the cycles. They assured me I am getting plenty through the supplements and the shots…yes the dreaded shots.
By Wednesday, my betas and repeat progesterone were back…..I’m PREGNANT! Baby boy is going to be a BIG BROTHER.
It’s early and we know this should be a cautiously optimistic excitement, but for now I am pregnant and hopeful and excited and scared and ahhhhhh…I’m pregnant.
I know…you’ve waited for two years for a graph….here it is, folks.
My HCG more than doubled in 48 hours. My numbers are high, but they were high with baby boy. I know, you’re thinking, “twins?” Nope…not likely. I think a mom knows….and my gut tells me there is one healthy little embryo in there growing daily. At this point, the arms are starting to develop, the neural tube is growing, the liver is developing, ears are developing,….ears?!?! Wow.
The first ultrasound is a few weeks away. We are hopeful to hear a heartbeat and be that much closer to feeling like this pregnancy will produce baby #2. I was filling out forms at the doctor. It asked how many times have you been pregnant?…five….how many children do you have?….one….I am praying to change those numbers to 5 and 2.
When you’re waiting, the clock feels like your enemy. But for now, I am going to sit back, smile knowing that today I am pregnant, and focus on the beauty in the clock that represents the city that makes all of this magic happen. I told Prague Fertility Center that they are really making dreams come true. I am praying that they can make my dreams of a larger family come true also….thanks for waiting with me.